I love you, yes I do! You are my sweet boy and you are
perfect in your own Aidan way.
You have the sweetest smile and I love it when you laugh!
You have the most expressive eyes and I want more than
anything to know your thoughts. Your words will soon come and one day that
dream will be realized.
One day we will be able to sit down and have a magical
conversation and you can tell me anything you want. Everything you have ever
wanted to tell me!
My world is better because you are in it. You have brought me
what I needed and have shown me the true meaning of life.
I will always take care of you and try my best to give you
everything you need and want. Sometimes it feels like I am not doing enough,
but believe me when I tell you I have tried. Some days have been hard, but we
are getting better, one day at a time. Keep being patient with me while I deal
with my own issues. They have nothing to do with you; I am just trying to take
care of myself while I fight my own demons. And please be patient while I try to
be patient with the world. It has nothing to do with you, because you are
perfect in your own Aidan way.
I hope you are happy and continue to be happy throughout
your life. All I want is what is best for you and I am working hard to figure
out what that is. If you don’t like something, let me know and I will do my
best to make it right. If you need something, please let me know and I will get
it for you.
I love you more than words can say. You are my teacher, my
love. Please be patient with your student.
You want more typing, so here goes…
This has been the most difficult journey of my life.
However, I do feel that everything I have done up to this point: becoming a
CVT, working all those hours for a neurologist taught me what I needed to know
technically what is going on, as well as prepared me for the long hours I have
put in trying to figure this autism/Dup15q thing out. You know, it is really
hard to type with you laying on my arm. Seriously hard. But that is OK, because
I love to snuggle with you and I love that you want to touch me. Some Moms
don’t have it that good. There are many things like that I am thankful for. It
could be so much worse.
You are loving and affectionate. You are able to overcome
your sensory issues to where we are able to go out in public. You try so very
hard and I am so proud of you for what you have accomplished. Do you know I was
afraid you would never walk? Now you run and do a quick-step while walking
backwards! I couldn’t even do that! You are able to choose the movie you want
to watch. You are dealing with school and the tasks that they want you to do.
You have interests and like to bring us into what you like. You aren’t rigid –
in fact you are very easygoing. Now you are leaning on my arm and drooling down
it. Nice touch.
You are going to the potty and I know that diapers will be a
thing of the past (by summer? At least in the day?).
You will eat almost anything, and we don’t have to worry about detoxing your little body. Oh, how hard that would be! You are healthy and strong and you are so beautiful! You sleep pretty well throughout the night, however I would like to see you sleep in until after 6am. 4am is much too early little man!
You will eat almost anything, and we don’t have to worry about detoxing your little body. Oh, how hard that would be! You are healthy and strong and you are so beautiful! You sleep pretty well throughout the night, however I would like to see you sleep in until after 6am. 4am is much too early little man!
You are sleepy and Daddy should be home soon. I guess I’ll
go empty the dishwasher!
Love you my sweet boy!!!
